little thinking of live

Siang menjadi siang lagi, pagi menjadi pagi lagi, dan malam menjadi malam lagi, aku terdiam sejenak dan memikirkan haruskah ku jalani kehidupanku terus seperti ini, setiap hari. Teringat bahwa kehidupan ini hanya sementara, matahari ini, bulan ini, tetesan hujan, langit biru dengan hiasan awan-awan putih hanya sementara. Aku harus bersabar, kehidupan yang sedang ku jalani hanyalah sementara. Aku disini hanya untuk beribadah sehingga kehidupan kekalku menjadi indah. Senyuman-senyuman terbayang-bayang dibenakku. Aku tak ingin mengecewakan senyuman-senyuman itu dan setiap tetes keringat yang membuatku tetap tegak berdiri. Aku akan terus semangat untuk mencapai the real happy ending, karena the real happy ending itu adalah ketika aku bisa bahagia selama-lamanya yaitu dikehidupan setelah kehidupan ini berakhir, disuatu kehidupan yang tak akan pernah berakhir. Dan aku berharap aku benar-benar akan mendapatkan the real happy ending itu bersama dengan mereka-mereka yang ku sayangi.

Cerpen "Where"

bikin cerpen sengaja dipublikasikan biar bisa dinikmati bersama. happy reading....

Where?

(Neli Prastiani)

            From the morning until that afternoon she had not ate anything. However, her mother had not showed her nose since she opened her eyes in the morning. There was no anything in the kitchen which could she ate. She just could wait and wait her mother came, she didn’t know exactly came from where. The sunset shows it mark. Her mother had not come yet. Her stomach could not wait again.

She wanted to buy some food but she didn’t have money. Then she thought to enter her mother bedroom looking for money. But she didn’t bravo enough to enter there. She worry if her father would angry if knew she did it. Since her brother die one week ago he was afraid to her father. Her mother often got unfair behavior from her father. And she never spoke anything to her father after that.

“kriuuk kriukk..” the sound of her stomach

In long time the sound of her stomach didn’t stop. She really really hungry and felt could not wait again. She decided to enter her parent’s bedroom quietly. She saw her father which was sleeping in sofa. After she felt sure that her father would not get up, directly she entered to her parent’s bedroom. How she very shocked when she found her parent’s bedroom so messy. When she was looking for money she was shocked again because she found there is blood on her mother clothes.

“Blood?”

“How can this blood here, on my mother clothe”

She began to think, and began to guess

“What is it possible? What is her father do criminal to my mother?

“Hoamm…” her father had got up from his sleeping. Listen it quickly she take the money which had she took some money which she had been found and leaved her parent’s bedroom. Then she went to small shop and ate.

The clock had showed 8.00 P.M and she had not seen her mother yet, her worry feeling is stronger in herself.

“Mom…Mom..” She began to cry

The bad thinking fulfilled her mind. The lost her mother very mysterious without leaved one word. She more and more disturbing with her bad, that her father had killed her mother. Moreover, she found blood in her mother’s clothed. Sure she hoped her guessing is wrong. She had not braved enough to ask about her mother to her father.

            She opened her eyes and looked the clock show 8.00 PM. slowly she got up and walk to go to bath room. This is 8^th days her holiday in her school five graduates in elementary school. One thing which she remembered when she got up, that is about her mother

“Mom.. Are you here?” she called her mother, hoping her mother back to home. But there was not answering.

”Mom.. Are you here?” she tried to call her mother again but there was no answering yet.

“I need you mom, I miss you” her saying while whisper, her teardrops followed on her cheek.

She went out from her bedroom. Now, there was whoever in house. Her father was going from home. In her kitchen when she wanted to cut onion she could not find the knife which usually in its place. She looking for many place but she didn’t find everywhere.

Her thinking suddenly remembered her mother and her thinking connected lost her mother with the knife which lost too. Quickly she lost her bad thinking. But the more she didn’t think about that the more she thought it. Her anxious feeling encourage to look back her mother’s clothes and enter to her parent’s bedroom. When she wanted open her parent’s bedroom she was made shocked with her father voice

“Dilla” she said while little screams

 “What are you doing?” he continue

Since 4 days ago after her brother die she heard her father spoke to her. As if there was important thing which forced her father to do it

“No. No I don’t do anything dad” she answer

Directly her father close the door her bedroom and lock it inside.

She just stand look what her father did.

“Mom how can father change like that, where are you mom? I am afraid here alone” she said in her heart. Quickly she went to her bedroom. On her bad she sat, closed her mouth and began to cry, pouring all in her feeling. This time everything feels changed.

Suddenly, she remembered her friend, she want to go to her friend’s house to share her problem. She turned her clothes, brushed her hair, and took sandal. In her friend’s house she told her problem and her friend gave spirit. When she back to home through back door her house she was stopped by a stack ground looks like was dig currently.

Her eyes open wide thinking every possible thing why there was a new stack ground here.

“Is possible if daddy kills my mother and buried her here? She said to herself about the worse things which in her mind.

The clock show 00.00 PM but she still had not been slept. Feeling afraid, worry, anxious, she felt in herself. As if not strong again to be anxious she really wanted to prove her bad thinking was wrong. She made herself braved to dig the new stuck ground. She decided to sleep several days in her friend’s house but before it she wanted to dig the stack ground. She prepared her clothes and put into bag.

Directly she went to backhouse and then she dug the new stack ground little by little carefully. She didn’t want anyone knew that. She had not finished dig suddenly she hear noisy sound in her house. Sounds like there was a woman who was talking with her parents while sob and call her name. She leaved her working and peek in her house through the little space of curtain.

“Mom.. That is my mother” she said to herself. Make she felt sure that is her mother.

Quickly she washed her hand and ran to her house to meet her mother. But when she entered her house there was no her mother, she just seen her father cry alone

“Where is mother Dad? Where?”

“Dilla, from where you are? He said

“Your mother went looking for you, she is sad because she cause you went away from house”

“Actually, yesterday she went to grandma’s house to make herself quiet of the fact that your brother is dead” he explained

“I am sorry I never tell you because I so sad too” he said

“Now, where my mom go dad? She said

“I don’t know she just say she want go away to looking for you, she will never back before she found you” he said

“Mom…” she cried and her father hugged Dilla

Puisi

this poem for women who is angle in my live. thank you to be with me.

She

(Neli Prastiani)

My sadness is her sadness

Smile in my face is her happiness

I am her world

Even thought she doesn’t said

But, I know

Because her loving explain more than that

She is someone who don’t want to look me cry,

Someone who understand me what I never speak,

Someone who stay with me when the world keeps away,

Someone who backside me in my successes,

If should I choose one important person in my live

I choose her

Because no someone like her

And there is will not

There is no hug like she hugs me softly

There is no love like she love me

I love her, and never doubt about that

She is the angle in my live

She is the best thing that’s mine

Kesel

KESEL?

Karya : Neli Prastiani

Ketika kesel sama orang, rasanya tuuh pengen mencet orang itu dan gak mau dilepasin, kalo orang itu berukuran kaya semut rasanya pengen ditaro ditangan terus diremukin seremuk-remuknya sambil numpahin rasa keselnya dan sambil bilang “gue tuuh keseeeel banget sama lo dan pengen ngebunuh lo sekarang juga titik”. Atau pengen nyemprot tuuh orang dengan omongan-omongan kekesalan, atau juga pengen bilang udahlah mendingan gak usah temenan lagi sama gue, gue muak temenan sama lo gue kesel, gak bisa diandelin banget, lo temen terburuk yang gue temui dihidup gue, simpan semua bacotan dan pembelaan lo, karena gue gak butuh omongan lo, lo udah terlanjur bikin gue kesel dan bikin hal yang harusnya gue pengen lakuin gagal kaya gini. Gue benci liat lo senyum, masih bisa yah lo senyum kaya gitu, rasanya pengen tarik mulut lo itu. Bagaimana bisa lo senyum, minta maaf juga engga sama gue, watados banget.

Haha pernah ngerasa gitu?atau ngelakuin hal kaya gitu? saya pikir semua pernah merasa kesal yang luar biasa banget seperti itu, rasanya kaya mending gak ada orang kaya dia didunia ini yaitu orang ternyebelin sedunia. Eitss tapi tunggu yah bagaimana pun perasaan sebel dan kesel itu tidak baik. Pertama adalah karena itu adalah penyakit hati. Kedua. karena itu adalah bisa menyebabkan penyakit seperti stress dan kawan-kawannya datang. Dan ketiga, menyita waktu, karena dengan berkesal-kesal ria kita bakal kehilangan waktu kita dengan hanya memikirkan orang yang bikin kita kesel, malah rugi banget kan. Udah kesel malah dibuat rugi sama hal yang dikesel tambah kesel aja, terus ga ada habis-habisnya kaya minum air laut sendirian ga ada habisnya(haha ga ada kerjaan banget). Keempat, kesel juga bikin pikiran kita jadi buyarrr, lagi makan inget hal yang dikesel, lagi minum juga, mau tidur, dijalan, disekolah, dan dimana-mana, udah kaya orang yang lagi jatuh cinta aja, tapi bedanya orang yang lagi kesel itu kaya bawa-bawa tomat yang busuk, jadi gitu lah setiap keinget malah nambah busuk. Gak kaya orang yang lagi falling in love setiap keinget malah jadi senyum-senyum sendiri kaya orang gila(jangan tersinggung yah bagi orang gila). Alternative lain bisa juga dengan ngelakuin hal-hal yang menyibukkan dan bermanfaat. Terserah kita hal bermanfaat apa, entah itu belajar, membaca, nekunnin hobi kita, beres-beres atau apa pun itu diri kita sendiri yang lebih tahu hal bermanfaat apa yang harus dilakuin.

Nah mending yang lagi kesel dimaafin aja orang yang bikin keselnya, walaupun emang gak mudah, tapi kan gak punya pilihan lain. Atau mau punya penyakit hati, stress, waktu tersita dan pikirannya jadi buyar gara-gara kesel, tambah rugi dong. Hidup udah susah mending udahlah gak usah dibuat susah. Pikirkan hal-hal positif disetiap hal yang bikin kita kesel, kalo belum ketemu terus pikirkan sampai ketemu, kalo belum ketemu juga maaf mungkin anda belum jodoh(haha becanda). Kalo belum ketemu hal positif atau hal baik dari hal atau orang yang bikin kesel coba deh intropeksi diri, mungkin ada yang salah dengan cara berpikir kita. Sebagai manusia yang mengerti agama yang baik, kita harus bisa melihat setiap hal baik dalam segala sesuatu apapun itu. Agama kita kan juga mengajarkan untuk berhusnuzon(berprasangka baik). Mending nanti kalo ada orang yang bikin kita kesel teriakin aja didepan dia sekeras-kerasnya kalo perlu bawa sepeker dimesjid minjem dulu, teriakin “gue udah maafin lo”. Dan pas keselnya ilang eh malah pengurus mesjid datang “bang itu sepekernya mau dipake adzan”(haha becanda). Cara lain buat ngilangin kesel bisa dengan menonton film lho, karena dengan menonton film kita biasanya akan masuk kedalam film tersebut dan seperti menjadi bagian film tersebut, gimana engga tokoh utamanya nangis ehh kita juga ikutan nangis bombay.

Hal yang harus dihindari ketika kesel adalah “update status”. Karena ketika kesel apalagi yang diupdatein selain ngupdetin kekesalan. Dan update status hanya akan menyebabkan kita menjadi orang yang tidak sabar. Pokoknya hindari deh update status. Kalo engga nahan-nahan banget pengen update yaudah update aja gini “gue udah maafin lo” yakinkan diri kalo kita udah maafin orang yang kita kesel, kalo perlu terus sebut berulang-ulang kata itu kepada diri sendiri kalo kita udah maafin orang atau hal yang bikin kesel.

Semoga dengan menerapkan cara-cara diatas kita bisa lebih baik dalam menghadapi rasa kesel, tanpa harus bergalau ria sehari semalam bersemedi dikamar mikirin hal atau orang yang dikesel(sungguh buang-buang waktu).